so this is new

so this is new.
and I don't know what to do
in case I fuck up.
what to do,
what to say,
how to react
when you're clearly not okay.
and when you're silent
it's not a comfortable silence,
not yet,
so I can't bring myself
to shut up
and relax
so I stick to plain facts
then I'm boring you.
I just want to get used to adoring you.
cause I do
and I think that it's mutual,
but let's face it you're beautiful,
funny and smart,
everything I'm not
and all that I am
and the more that I know you
the more I can't stand
this distance.
the physical, the emotional,
so I try and bridge the gap
but you push me right back
and it pains me,
but I know you did right
cause this piece of crazy
just keeps on escaping.
it needs some restraining,
it needs to pull back
but you're not complaining about it.
I think I just need to chill out.
it'll work itself out.
so I guess what I'm saying
is I want it to.
I don't want to lose what this is
whatever it is.
I'll reign back just for you,
just 'til it's not so new.